We need to stop killing our own kind. Nipsey was killed by someone in his own neighborhood. This article is about how my mission of women’s sexual empowerment almost died at the steak of women. A community I have attempted to build up since a decade ago.
I admit that I didn’t know Nipsey Hussle’s music a week ago as much as I do today. Listening to his message of grinding, not stopping, and making positive change in our community is what has re-inspired me to start my Yoni Egg business again.
If we don’t talk about our problems and bring light to them, great leaders in our community will continue to die at the feet of their people. Everything I share with you here is in the spirit of healing this awful divide we have in the women’s community. Just like with Yoni Breathing, you got to moan loud and proud or else that energy can get stuck and create disease.
So, when moving across the country after being served a gag-order from my ex (worse than a divorce) I moved to Nevada because there is no state income tax here or winter! Here is here I re-branded Graceful Empowerment to Yoni Grace, LLC. During the day I would try my best to float above water but deep down I was dying inside.
This cross country transition was most depressing because I felt so alone. I moved to no family or friends and on top of it all I felt like I couldn’t really speak my truth of what happened in my relationship that I felt would ultimately set me free.
After about nearly two years of brutal crying and depression I started my Vaginal Voice Foundation and nonprofit to help me have the fortitude to share my story and give voice to other women who also suffered from sexual trauma, rape, drug abuse, physical abuse, psychological abuse and ultimately legal and systematic disproportionate of power that often exists between men and women that permit these injustices.
Since the beginning of my Yoni Breathing and Yoni Egg mission back in 2011, I have hired over 30 women as either packaging or email assistants. Half of these women truly betrayed trust in significant ways like attempting to steal my company, having to take them to court, not returning keys, stealing Yoni Eggs, pretending to do work, being hours late daily. But the lying to the police saying I was trying to kill myself. I was so humiliated when the cops came to do a suicide check on me. Massive betrayal of trust, to say the least.
Then the Vice President and Secretary of, The Vaginal Voice Foundation missed meetings and wouldn’t try to reschedule them so I really thought about it and felt it as best to let them go too. They both immediately got vindictive and said they were going to tell everyone that I deserve to be alone and depressed and that I am just money hungry and that I don’t care about anything else.
At this point I was really feeling targeted by the same women I was trying to lift up. My real community knows how much I give away for free and all of these women were given so much and provided even my home to sleep at when they needed it, to only be betrayed later.
So when I shared with you in a previous video I was starting my own Yoni Egg manufacturing company, it was out of true genuine love for the crystal-crafting and the sacred sexual healing that would come from them. But after dealing with so much emotional betrayal from women – many of them very close friends, I was for the first time confused about why I was doing this work in the first place.
This is really what happened with my Yoni Egg business and I am so sad to report it but in order to heal it we must know the problem exists. I am shining light on it in honor of other leaders who have been targeted by their people like Nipsey Hussle and Dr. Sebi, please google more about these great men and their legacy and let us lift up our community builders and support the mission!!!
Controlling our inner demons is vital. Being triggered is natural, but channeling that pain appropriately is why we were given consciousness of choice. Using our consciousness to control our impulses allows us not to hurt those who may trigger us. Most times our pain has nothing to do with the other person, but more to do with how we honor the release of that hurt.
I love each and every one of these women, truly. Although they really did hurt me, the only way to stop karma from repeating the cycle is by letting go of the emotional connection to them. Remembering the experience without pain is true forgiveness, as Celia Cruz put it famously in her songs. I hope we can all learn to really uphold our sisters and see them as ourselves. That’s the true oneness. That is how we will persevere and come out front with building our community.